first, i'm sorry if i ramble a little i am just trying to vent some and i hope this is the right forum, if not please forgive me because i have to get this out.
my name is David, and to give a little history. i have been on my own sence i was 17(38now) and was you and dumn got in a little trouble stuff like that. i was lucky enough to have a friend who introduce me to his uncle when i needed a job. i loved cars but was completely stupid about them. he owned his own shop specializing in transmissions and he gave me a job sweeping and cleaning parts, stuff like that.lucky for me i learn fast and he started teaching me how to do the hard stuff and within 2 years i was no longer an r&r man i was the builder and i was incharge of work coming in going out especially the performance stuff and i grew to love mustangs, and working on them.
the main part of this story is not that he gave me a job and gave me a vocation, he was a great person, he taught me how to live take car of money, basically taught me how to be a man and be responsible for my life. he had diabetes pretty bad but was stubburn and over the 18 years i knew him he lived how he wanted and did what he wanted until it took his life march 5,2011. i droped hin off at the hospitol at 5am the day before for a minor opperation and was supposed to pick him up the next day except they called me at 4.45am the 5th to let me know he had passed from a blood clot. ever though both my parents had passed a few years before it never bothered me, they divorced remarried had kids and i welll i was the outcast so it didn't bother me when they went. but when Mike passed it devastated me. even now almost a year later i still don't know how to deal with it. i was able to make myself go to his funeral and i have yet been to visit his grave site. wee i hurt my back at work in 08 and had surgery and have been out sence so i live with my best friend and his family and they are great and treat me like i'm one of thier own. well my friend dad was diagnosed with stage 4 renal cancer Dec 2010 and he just passed 2/23/12, then teh nexy dayanother friend passed from a blood clot i think was a result of a stroke then yesterday another friend called to tell us his father lost his battle with cancer(i didn't know him personally). i just don't understand how so much bad can happen to so many at one time. with it being a few days of being a year sence Mike passed and still grieving from it how do i help my friends, i can't even get my own shit together.
i'm not asking anyone to feel sorry for me, i just need some advice or help.
have any of you had similar things happen
i'm sorry this is so long i just can't talk to anyone here and sometimes it helps to talk to stangers who have gone through it as well. maybe an SVTP support group if you will.
and if it'sreal93/jess sees this i am very sorry to hear about the things you are going through and if there is anything i can do or if you need someone to talk to just let me know.
thanks everyone for reading David
my name is David, and to give a little history. i have been on my own sence i was 17(38now) and was you and dumn got in a little trouble stuff like that. i was lucky enough to have a friend who introduce me to his uncle when i needed a job. i loved cars but was completely stupid about them. he owned his own shop specializing in transmissions and he gave me a job sweeping and cleaning parts, stuff like that.lucky for me i learn fast and he started teaching me how to do the hard stuff and within 2 years i was no longer an r&r man i was the builder and i was incharge of work coming in going out especially the performance stuff and i grew to love mustangs, and working on them.
the main part of this story is not that he gave me a job and gave me a vocation, he was a great person, he taught me how to live take car of money, basically taught me how to be a man and be responsible for my life. he had diabetes pretty bad but was stubburn and over the 18 years i knew him he lived how he wanted and did what he wanted until it took his life march 5,2011. i droped hin off at the hospitol at 5am the day before for a minor opperation and was supposed to pick him up the next day except they called me at 4.45am the 5th to let me know he had passed from a blood clot. ever though both my parents had passed a few years before it never bothered me, they divorced remarried had kids and i welll i was the outcast so it didn't bother me when they went. but when Mike passed it devastated me. even now almost a year later i still don't know how to deal with it. i was able to make myself go to his funeral and i have yet been to visit his grave site. wee i hurt my back at work in 08 and had surgery and have been out sence so i live with my best friend and his family and they are great and treat me like i'm one of thier own. well my friend dad was diagnosed with stage 4 renal cancer Dec 2010 and he just passed 2/23/12, then teh nexy dayanother friend passed from a blood clot i think was a result of a stroke then yesterday another friend called to tell us his father lost his battle with cancer(i didn't know him personally). i just don't understand how so much bad can happen to so many at one time. with it being a few days of being a year sence Mike passed and still grieving from it how do i help my friends, i can't even get my own shit together.
i'm not asking anyone to feel sorry for me, i just need some advice or help.
have any of you had similar things happen
i'm sorry this is so long i just can't talk to anyone here and sometimes it helps to talk to stangers who have gone through it as well. maybe an SVTP support group if you will.
and if it'sreal93/jess sees this i am very sorry to hear about the things you are going through and if there is anything i can do or if you need someone to talk to just let me know.
thanks everyone for reading David