I realize this pertains to like a fifth of the board if not much less. Perspective however from either side of the fence is welcomed. The one thing I do love about this forum is the brutal honesty.
Last night at work with a splitting headache I sorta digressed in a few mental/emotional aspects. Let me be clear that I have never killed anyone, served in combat, have PTSD and in no means attempting to take any light away from those who desperately need our help. But realize that just because others need more help does not mean ours should not be addressed. I did serve 20 years of which 4 trips to the Middle East of three years, safe place for the most part...Bahrain. The issue isn't what I've been through but after 20 years adjusting back to dealing with Civilians. Few example....you think Bob a few cubicles down is a swell guy right...you guys do lunch periodically. Would you die for Bob? The aspects of Military life the highs and especially the lows we create bonds that are indescribable. I no longer have that, Civilian's..don't have that and I miss that camaraderie. Another....you know when I saw real racism for the first time? After I left the Military and came back to the Civilian sector. Blew my mind. So racist I had to put this guy in check immediately and rather firmly. Al I see anymore is White and Black. It's this little picture we see everyday because that's all there is. News Flash..when you're deployed around the world (insert black guys name) is your brother...another American, one you would die for. Leaving that mindset to come back to this small picture sucks ass. I honestly hate this touchy feely atmosphere where I can't even be myself. I wonder if the touchy feeling is killed early on in a Military Career. Maybe I'm just not a bitch and never have been. I text my wife last night from work and asked her if I she felt I had anger issues. I've literally about jerked 3 people out of their vehicles for stupid shit. She said I was just having issues adjusting to Civilian life. I retired in 13...why is this coming to a head now? The political stance of this country is so jacked up right now that that doesn't help. That in itself is another discussion for Smack Down cause I'm not getting through that without choice words. Everything seem so dull..leveled out..blah.
That's the tip of the iceberg...sorry if you read through that...appreciate it though.
Time to go wrench on the Mustang.....
Last night at work with a splitting headache I sorta digressed in a few mental/emotional aspects. Let me be clear that I have never killed anyone, served in combat, have PTSD and in no means attempting to take any light away from those who desperately need our help. But realize that just because others need more help does not mean ours should not be addressed. I did serve 20 years of which 4 trips to the Middle East of three years, safe place for the most part...Bahrain. The issue isn't what I've been through but after 20 years adjusting back to dealing with Civilians. Few example....you think Bob a few cubicles down is a swell guy right...you guys do lunch periodically. Would you die for Bob? The aspects of Military life the highs and especially the lows we create bonds that are indescribable. I no longer have that, Civilian's..don't have that and I miss that camaraderie. Another....you know when I saw real racism for the first time? After I left the Military and came back to the Civilian sector. Blew my mind. So racist I had to put this guy in check immediately and rather firmly. Al I see anymore is White and Black. It's this little picture we see everyday because that's all there is. News Flash..when you're deployed around the world (insert black guys name) is your brother...another American, one you would die for. Leaving that mindset to come back to this small picture sucks ass. I honestly hate this touchy feely atmosphere where I can't even be myself. I wonder if the touchy feeling is killed early on in a Military Career. Maybe I'm just not a bitch and never have been. I text my wife last night from work and asked her if I she felt I had anger issues. I've literally about jerked 3 people out of their vehicles for stupid shit. She said I was just having issues adjusting to Civilian life. I retired in 13...why is this coming to a head now? The political stance of this country is so jacked up right now that that doesn't help. That in itself is another discussion for Smack Down cause I'm not getting through that without choice words. Everything seem so dull..leveled out..blah.
That's the tip of the iceberg...sorry if you read through that...appreciate it though.
Time to go wrench on the Mustang.....